so the first week after my disclosing everything to my wife (which she has chosen not to read this… but we have left it open for the future if she ever changes her mind)… i have noticed quite a few changes in me… some could have been expected…...
so after coming out to my wife and her telling me it was ok – she supported me, and was completely fine with it – i started looking around. for the first time in my life… i could openly, without shame or feeling like i need to hide it… order...
so for most of my writing here, you have read about my struggles in whether i would, or how i would tell my wife. this occupied my thoughts almost every single day… i went to therapy to try and find the “right” way to do it… i dreamt through...
several times throughout my life i have found myself back here adding to this blog, and reading it start to finish. i am reaching a milestone soon, and while this is FAR from the only concern in my life – it certainly is a persistent one. people have come and...
that seems to be the million dollar question. and to be honest – i do not have an answer for it. it is a virtual impossibility to match what i have in my head, with my external appearance – im sad about that, but i have learned to cope with that loss and...
since being married, i have tried therapy several more times. i keep trying to find a way to deal with this longing and despair because i cannot be what my brain thinks i am, i cannot find a way to fill that void in my life…. and/or try to find a way to approach...
