19. joining a group.

my last therapist referred me to a group that was mainly online… more of a message board really – but it is policed to keep all the wankers out (apparently, there are people with fetishes for people like us? weird). i decided to give it a try and see. it...

18. real therapy.

i decided in my mid to late 20s that i needed to get a grasp on all that i had gone through in my life. so i sought some help from a therapist. before i did that however… i decided that maybe i should sit and talk with my sister. the bond i had with my sister...

17. indulgence and research.

after my divorce i had to pick myself up and dust myself off and move on. it took me a long time to recover from it all as it destroyed me financially (emotionally too, but to a much lesser extent). around this time is when the internet really started to gain steam....

16. deception.

in my early 20s i dated then married a girl i knew and dated a bit from high school. it was more settling than it was a true passion. i honestly dont know why i decided to marry her… it wasnt that i didnt love her because i did… but i just didnt share the...

15. fallout.

one girl i started dating casually around this time after my last serious relationship was honestly a bit of an airhead. but, she was insanely hot (like out of my league level of hot).. and was popular. so i figured it might be fun for a while – lets see what...

14. growing up.

things improved when living with our dad and step mom… but not by a lot. at least there was no more physical torture and abuse. but there was plenty of mental. our new step mom loved spending time with us… but we were made very aware that our step brother,...